after weeks of hoping that I wouldn't care, ironically this fans the flames of jealousy, I don't know really.

for once, I am feeling a short-lived kind of happy which is much better in comparison to the usual numbness or resignation I experience trudging around school day after day.

(((((:
:D

guess why! x) even though yeah at first I was in my fallingawayfromnothing mode, but somehow things transpired to reach that point and really, I shouldn't be revealing too much in public (er why do I keep a blog in the first place if I know it's public and rather exhibitionistic; I don't know). but if you feel an urge to know! YOU COULD ALWAYS ASK ME ((: though I'd perhaps never tell you.

maybe I'm glad that it did, maybe I'm sad, but all matters now is how I react.


wait, whoa shit, my hp just screwed up. just so you know, I'll be uncontactable until it gets repaired AND I HOPE IT DOES, BECAUSE THERE ARE IMPORTANT DOCUMENTS INSIDE THERE. ): what a thing to ruin my hyperness.