zz life as usual, represents my starting words. full of meaning and intent, nothing else. like golf, which is dead boring. and has no endgame except a HOLE?! actually I have no idea why I am blogging here in the first place because a. I have alternative places to blog, b. I am going to exceed my limit for this month. I've been rereading my archives and err. sometimes they were so ambiguous and ambivalent that even I didn't know what I was talking about, or even what I could conceivably be thinking about. but I'm forcibly reminded that this blog has accompanied me through much of my secondary school years. so yeah. this entry will be deleted soon (:this is just a quick comment on something I felt strongly about:it's incredibly not justified, the sch admin's (henceforth referred to as sa, if you don't know my sch then all the better for you and me) decisions to base funding/subsidies for performing arts cca on syf. then again, syf itself is subjective, though I must say that for string ensemble at least, most deserve what they get (: though I could conceive of a thousand reasons for the sa's actions, none of them seem very plausible when you think of what standards the sch hold us to. if they expect revolutionary, record-breaking achievements that has to come with an indefatigable and unconditional support. furthermore, the sch's emphasis, especially in recent years, has been heavily tilted towards academics, leadership and sports. not that there is anything wrong with that, but in general the UGs, clubs and societies and performing arts/culture groups are unappreciated. they try to cultivate and enforce concert etiquette but that too comes from understanding and I am quite willing to bet that while they might practise what they preach, they don't understand the rationale for what they preach. authority figures do turn up for important events like concerts, or the Guides' AA, but it is merely representation. often these abovementioned ccas/groups are barely acknowledged for their efforts in maintaining/improving the school culture. for performing arts especially, it seems to be a once-in-two-years effort for syf and the rest of the time, the sa cannot possibly care what else happens. for UGs, they are employed to do goh duty and/or tie knots (lol! guides) and surely they deserve a note of commendation too? if sch spirit involves the celebration of academic and sporting achievements while leaving other equally important but more intangible achievements then it is no wonder that sch spirit fails to rouse the emotions of majority of the student population.this is a disclaimer; I am not out to criticise the sa without info/evidence, all the opinions expressed here are strictly by the author, after much discussion on the subject with others, and yeah I do have better things to do with my time just that I thought it would be better for me to stop this point niggling at me and I'm quite sure many others will agree (: